“I’m just not feeling okay this morning. Dropping my son off at school, like I’ve done so many times before, felt really hard today. I held him a little tighter, kissed him on the forehead ten times, and said goodbye, but it just didn’t feel right. As I walked away from the school, tears started to fill my eyes. Driving home was tough; I wished I could just stay in the school parking lot all day, hoping that would somehow help.
Now, as I sit here typing, I’m overwhelmed with images of the little ones who lost their lives yesterday popping up in my news feed. It breaks my heart to think about the parents who will never see their kids again, who should be celebrating the end of the school year and making summer plans, but instead are planning funerals. I’m pleading with God for safety, change, and healing hearts. The mix of panic and grief is making it hard to breathe.
If you’re feeling like me and not okay, just know you’re not alone. I don’t have the right words or anything to fix it, but I’m allowing myself to feel, process, and mourn. I hope you can do the same